Close Your Eyes and Keep Dancing

Tasmanian morning sky

Writing a blog has been an interesting challenge.  While the editors' voices in my head have always been there, I noticed they were silenced during the period leading up to completing my website and launching my blog.  That was the time when I was so sure about what I was doing that there was simply no room for the voices of critics.  I was writing all over the place - there were blog posts piling up in my head and on my laptop and on the backs of bank receipts.  I couldn't imagine how I'd ever find enough time to write all I had to say.   

Sunrise over Hobart (from my office)

Until it came time to finally do the first post - the one you had to announce to the world was there, ready to read, because you're supposed to do all the right marketing things to let people know about the website.  

And suddenly, the fact that it was actually out there, available to read changed everything.  The editors' voices returned with a vengeance.  

"Ooh I'm not sure you should say that..."  

"Mmm...(tsk tsk) do you think that's quite right?"  

"Are you sure that's the right way to say that?"......and on and on.  Suddenly, I had almost nothing to say, and absolutely no way to say it.  

Izzy the Bus - dozing in the dark!

For all that pre-website time, I felt like I'd been dancing in a dark room, totally tuning in to myself and my own rhythm and spirit and voice.  Then suddenly someone turned the lights on, and there's all these people standing in a circle around me looking disapproving. Needless to say, the flow and integrity of the dancing changes a bit!

Slowly, over the past few weeks though, I'm starting to get more comfortable with it.  For one thing, I still don't know how to put the word out regularly that my blog is up there, so very few people are actually reading it!  But the internal critics' voices are gradually fading and making less of a fuss, because I think I've found the answer...

It's really quite simple - you just close your eyes and keep dancing.

Thanks for listening...